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Andrew has published short stories in literary magazines and been placed in national and international short story competitions. He has given readings at festivals and events including Canterbury Festival, Canterbury Fringe, Deal Festival and Whitstable Wordfest. His last reading was at the Angel Centre in Tonbridge, Kent, on March 12th. He is featured in the Hip EP, anthology(published in late 2008) alongside authors Catherine Smith and David Gardiner. His first collection of short stories, Kafka's Chair and Other Bad Luck Stories, is published in 2009. The Last Film, published below, is a sample from this forthcoming collection. It won first prize for fiction in The New Writer competition, and was first published in 2004. The judge, novelist and reviewer Phil Whitaker said, “The writer evokes brilliantly the claustrophobic atmosphere of a modern sweatshop, a setting employed to subtle and considerable metaphoric effect. Skilful building of a sinister atmosphere adds tautness to the excellent pace. The end note resounds, rounding off both the story and its themes perfectly. Superb.”
The Last Film It’s hard to focus on nothing. Four-in-the-morning-darkness and Ritchie is having one of his moments. His fingers are frozen on the hot steel guard of the film-cutter. He’s gripped by fear. Fear of the fine blade coming down on his fingers and slicing them clean off like chipolatas. The tail of a film he’s pulled from a cartridge like a winkle from its shell is waiting to be despatched. It’s film number 10,000. Target figure for July. By no means high, but Ritchie could claim to be the most careful splicer in the darkroom. A safe pair of hands. Never lost a film, not in six months, even on the long and exhausting nightshift. He remembers the first day of training. ‘It should run like clockwork,’ Mr Baashi said, monotone voice, like he was reading from an instruction manual. ‘Pick a cartridge from the end of the wooden chute, peel off the metal cap using the fixed claw on the side of the splicing machine (just like removing a bottle top), take out the roll of film, unravel it no more than an inch, place it on the flat metal plate of said machine, feed the tapered end under the two millimetre gap of the cutter guard, press the button and that is it. The pistons will fire, the blade will cut and the film will automatically run through, splicing the film ahead of it, coming out joined on the reel.’ Mr Baashi demonstrated on a pretend machine in a bulb-lit room. ‘It’s a simple process compromised by two things. If you peel off the cap and something smells acrid, metallic, it’s the chemicals of contamination. Tip the film into your hands and feel for a moist, fleshy softness in your fingers. If so, throw the film into the bin beside your leg and place the cartridge in a plastic box for administration. Damaged goods. Return to sender. The life in pictures intended to immortalise a moment comes to a sticky end before it has even begun.’ ‘The second complication is dropping a film,’ he went on. ‘If still in its cartridge, you might find it amongst the thousands of spent clippings by using an infrared headset. If outside its cartridge, it is virtually lost because the overhead lights come on and the cleaners sweep out the waste. Like snails outside their shells or vampires outside their coffins at dawn, films perish.’ He’s a good man, Mr Baashi. Hot on health and safety. Hardly one accident since the grand opening twenty years ago and certainly no lost fingers. He insists the splicers take a full hour for lunch-break so they are alert and don’t fall asleep at the machines. But maybe he’s more interested in the numbers. Ritchie wishes he could switch off his brain. Thinking kills the numbers, keeps them low and gets the darkroom supervisor, Mr Baashi’s eldest son, hot and prickly. He’s the future inheritor of the not-so-flourishing Baashi and Baashi Photo Developers Inc. ‘Splicers work most effectively as automata,’ young Baashi’d said. ‘Try to work without thinking. Use the feelings in your fingers and your natural instincts, but don’t use your head. If you think too much about what you’re doing, the process breaks down. You break down.’ Ritchie’s working at machine number six. He deliberately gets to the factory early so he is guaranteed this machine. It doesn’t overheat or break down like the other ten which means a smoother journey through the night, a passage in which time might fly more quickly. ‘I’m back, Ritchie!’ It’s Muriel. She’s been to the loo. The scent of freshly sprayed perfume overtakes her in the revolving cylindrical door like a damp floral mist. She approaches, sleepwalker gait, outstretched arms, small tentative footsteps like she’s shuffling around her bed at night. It takes time re-adjusting to the poisonous prison dark. Muriel is a veteran. Fifteen years at the helm of splicing machine number seven. Always works the nightshift. Says she prefers it because she’s an insomniac. Doesn’t know if she’s an insomniac because she works the nightshift or works the nightshift because she’s an insomniac. Either way, she’s stuck in the zombie zone. At weekends, to stay in the night cycle, she works as a DJ, spinning the vinyl at retro discos and parties. Records constantly spin in her psyche. Buddy Holly, The Beatles, The Glitter Band, T-Rex, Mud, Elvis and The Sweet. At midnight in the canteen, she sings songs out loud like a human jukebox. She steadies herself using Ritchie’s shoulder before sitting beside him at splicer number seven. She leans across and takes a long snort. ‘I do love that lovely soap you use, Ritchie! Is it rosemary? Is it thyme?’ He can barely hear her above the darkroom clatter even though she’s shouting. She’s looking in his bodiless direction. Soon, she will find the miniscule light in the room and locate the end of the wooden chute and start the process. She’ll look across and pick out Ritchie’s shape, then maybe his motionless fingers upon the metal plate frozen like a pianist at the keys. A pianist who, despite having known and played a tune most of his life, has simply forgotten it. ‘Lovely soapy smell!’ she balls. ‘I always know when you’re in the darkroom!’ Suddenly, the top of Ritchie’s chute flops open. The hole in the wall is angled at 45 degrees so the films move smoothly without getting stuck. The opening is designed to stop light getting in but on a changeover, a momentary fragment of yellow light breaks in from the corridor where the girls ready the cartridges. They sit chattering at a long row of desks but can only be heard by the splicers when the chute opens. When a splicer presses a button on the darkroom floor, a green light flashes on the wall outside and a girl removes an empty chute, refills it and forces it inside the tunnel where it slides back down, ending abruptly with a loud clap. Clap! Thirty more cartridges. Thirty more anonymous lives to be spun onto a wheel. But Ritchie still has one in his fingers. It doesn’t want to let go. Film number 10,000. It clings to him and the metal plate, tail end out, an inch from the blade, two feet from a knee-high pile of cuttings on the floor. Maybe it’s trying to tell him something? He can’t press the start button though he’s tried ten times. He thinks he’s going mad. The deafening noise of firing pistons and chopping knives has a unified rhythm, as if every splicer is keeping to the beat of a drum; slaves in the bowels of a Roman vessel steaming to ramming speed. Ritchie looks to his right, sees the outlines of serried workers leaning back in their chairs, staring dumb at a black wall. He looks down at the film he can’t see. It seems to be moving on his fingers. ‘Not wanting to join the fat wheel of fortune?’ he says to himself. He shakes it. ‘Who’s in there? How many cheesy grins?’ He feels the thickness of a foot of film resting on his reel. ‘How many faces are already pressed together? Diced and spliced on this cog?’ Figures move about the dark like shadowy ghosts, small red eyes floating in the void like mating fireflies. They are the checkers with the rare gift of sight. Baashi’s new, expensive infrared headsets are clamped tight around their faces. They stand at benches on either side of the room, spinning reels on wheels, looking for faults. Are the films spliced tightly? Has the glue set on the joins? They drift from machine to machine hauling off heavy reels and replacing them with empties. They whiz through the films not thinking of the people who are joined together on them. They only want to see neat lines, clean edges and dry glue. All, except Sick Mick. He’s ex-army. Ex-con. Boss of checkers. Everyone’s terrified of him. In a brown leather holster strapped to his leg is a Swiss-Army knife. He says he needs it to cut badly spliced film but everyone knows there are scissors for that. The knife never leaves his side except to play in his hand. It clings to him, or they cling to each other. Sick Mick takes a keen interest in his work. The photographs. He has a private collection stashed inside his staffroom locker and shows them to every new member of staff the moment they walk through the door, like a rite of passage. People in various positions in various locations. Homes, beaches, woods, barns. Beds of springs, sand, grass and straw. Groups in all combinations. Sick Mick likes the close-ups. The gynaecological. He files them away in a fat album divided into sections: Boy-girl, girl-girl, boy-boy. Ebony and Ivory. Manimal. He makes copies, never numbing to the images, promptly entering them for his weekly Top Ten. He takes pleasure from his treasure and shares it with young Basshi who sees a lucrative business in amateur glossies should the worst come to the worst and digital kill 35mml. If his father knew, they’d both be out the door but no one speaks about the private collection. It’s a club with one rule. No one tells, or else. At least once a week in the darkroom, Ritchie feels something soft sweep across his cheek and down his neck like the brush of a feather. He imagines it is precious oxygen pushing through the revolving door and mixing with the heat venting up from his machine. Or it’s a large exotic moth, trapped and frantically seeking light. Or maybe a lover’s butterfly kiss. One night, Ritchie dropped a film and asked for a headset. He slipped it over his head and saw things for what they were, or what they were not. The starkness of the chalk-white breezeblock walls and the dark chutes sticking out from them, some moving up, some moving down, like the legs of a giant spider. The ashen faces of the splicers, lips grey as stone, eyes like ink wells; deathly ghosts barely moving in the grainy light. He found the film, stood and turned. Muriel was working her chute, picking two cartridges at a time, peeling the lids, feeding them in like a pro, but under her chin and over her mouth were hands. Sick Mick was rooted behind her like the grim reaper, red-eyed, cold smile on his mouth. His knife glided down her pale cheek and across her throat in one sleek stroke. No blood. Just Mick’s sick joke but Ritchie thought, how different or similar can a feather and a knife be? Ritchie’s still unable to move. If he’s not careful the checkers’ attuned ears will detect the deadness of his machine, but it’s getting near the end of the nightshift so maybe they won’t and Muriel’s machine is firing on all cylinders so they might not notice the quietness next to her. Heat, fatigue and midnight lunch of soup and a sausage sandwich are making him drowsy. Intermittently, his eyelids droop, his shoulders drop, his fingers loosen. Film 10,000 slips, re-coiling, dropping from his juggling, waking hands, falling silently into the graveyard of cuttings. He waits a moment, then shouts: ‘Dropped film!’ ‘Bad boy, hard-on,’ Sick Mick sniggers over his shoulder. ‘Get off me! How long have you been there?’ He thrusts a headset into Ritchie’s lap. ‘Don’t bother with the three minute rule. If you can’t find it, leave it. It can go out with the rubbish. My shift’s over.’ Ritchie waits for the revolving door to swish, the flicker of corridor light to come and go like a camera flash. Maybe it is fate, he thinks. Maybe film 10,000 is not meant to be processed. Couldn’t he just leave it? Couldn’t it be the first film he’s ever lost? But it’s someone’s precious moment, Ritchie. Recorded for posterity. A permanent visual history. A birth, a baptism, a wedding. A butterfly on a rose. A seagull on a beach. A family portrait for the mantelpiece. He slips the headset on, sees Muriel’s lips moving in time to her private songs, stockinged legs straddling her machine, shoes hanging on the tips of her toes which tap to invisible music locked inside her head. He steps around and waves a hand in front of her eyes. Her hot breath sticks to his palm but she doesn’t flinch an inch, just stares into the breezeblock wall like he’s a see-through spirit out of the ground. Only a fool breaks the three minute rule. That’s what Mr Baashi’d said at training. Count the seconds in your head, but don’t waste time. Ritchie bends down, suddenly sweating, suddenly dizzy, counting as if going under surgical anaesthetic. ‘One…two…three...’ Strange stars blaze across his eyes like comets in a clear night sky. ‘..four …five…’ He pushes his hands deep inside a sea of sharp plastic film-ends, smoothes his fingers around, feeling for the ball of film. ‘…seven…eight…’ Faces rise up from the cuttings, peeping eyes peering, grotesque smiles sneering on severed heads, torn hearts and parts like bits from a butcher’s block. He breathes deeply, counts quickly, ‘Ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen…,’ runs his hands through the cuttings like they are fallen autumn leaves. There it is, nestled at the back of the machine like it’s run away and hiding. He reaches out. It touches his longest finger and rolls further away. He leans in, stretching his arm, his hand, his fingers. Gotcha. It seems to wriggle like a worm between his thumb and forefinger. He crawls out and stands up, shaking on his legs. He holds it close to his lenses. Is it the same film? Are more hiding behind the machine? The forgotten ones. The lost ones. Ritchie, it doesn’t matter. You’ll never know who they are, or they you. It’s in your hands. Film 10,000. Your monthly target. You’re going home. He slumps in his seat and stares ahead. His machine looks like a strange box caught in moonlight. ‘It’s difficult when you can suddenly see,’ he mumbles. ‘Everything looks so different.’ Use your touch, your fingers, not your head. He feeds the tail-end of the film under the cutter and reaches for the button. It’s not in its place. He pulls off the mask. Inky darkness smothers his eyes but he knows where the switch is by feeling, by instinct. Once more, he threads the tapered end under the cutter, holds it down with his left hand, raises his right index and prods the button. Down-up in one motion the blade cuts through, setting the pistons afire, shooting the film to its reel. He looks down. His left-handed fingers. They’re resting on the metal plate and he’s not sure they’re still part of him. copyright Andrew McGuinness, 2004 |
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